HeartBreaker..

so how do i start??? i try to be as simple as possible describing this issue...

recently i got this number..girl from a website..

honestly i hate having this kind of relationship..we always unable to express what what actually we wanted to say..by sms ing i meant...

so we msg alot..quite alot..and calling??? when i really depressed lost control.. bad mood..i only think of her...after my dear god that is Allah...

a little bit about her...i dont really know her..yaa.. a gurl in the internet..what else to tell..she is really religious person, smart, mature younger than me that is...

NOT IN MILLION YEARS OF LIGHT TRAVEL FOR ME TO MAKE HER IN LOVE WITH ME...
NEVER EVER EVER!!!!! NO!!! STAY AWAY FROM ME... I'LL HURT UR FEELING..PLZ STAY AWAY FROM ME...DONT MAKE ME LOSE CONTROL...I LIKE YOU..BUT WE ARE NOT MEANT TO BE TOGETHER...HELP!!!!!!!

I am asking help from myself..the demon inside....

i'm sick of this feeling...the desire to be love by a gurl..

i remember once i have recite this prayer...

"ooo lord..dont make me suffer for the love to these girls...i am not worth it for them...i'm just no body..ooo lord.. if i could ever ask...please make my heart as hard as diamond..as cold as ice..so that i wont feel the feeling of being hurt..take away my love for this world if i cant bare the responsibility...take away my feelings..i which i am a robot..but i really miss Your love.."


but what kind of monster am i now???i have break so many heart..what if they are my sister?? my siblings???

>>>>i hate these feeling..get out of my brain..i dont wanna be infected by these disease..they are destroying my system..<<<<

entry ni aku pn xfhm ape aku meraban...tp kalo ada org fhm korg fhm2 je laaa....

uishhhh....mmg bulan 4 aku sewel biol2 sket...xske bln 4....

bengong aku ckp aku ckp aku takut aku mungkin ske dia..mmg aku takut pn...

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

duishhhhh gedebok..(kick ninja samurai x kenshin himura...aku benci sume niiiii....aku dh malukan diri sndri..bengongggggggggggggg)

actually sape circuit breaker...ofcoz laa aku mrepek pasal diri aku...

p/s;takut org xfhm n salah fhm dia yang break my heart..hahahaha

lalalala~~~~

aku rasa aku kena amik barbiturat or dophamine laa...mcm plek je aku taip nihhh....

dia kate aku ada double personality???yeke?????

iyalaa bkn iya dongggg