Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
Intro Merepek
Andai kata kamu mengayuh basikal. Jauh. Untuk membeli nasi lemak ayam berharga rm5.00. Memang kamu hanya inginkan nasi ayam. Sampai di kedai nasi lemak ayam tiada. Yang ada hanya nasi lemak biasa berharga rm1.50. Kamu lapar. Memang nak makan nasi. Cuba cari kedai sebelah berdekatan. Hampa. Ingin beli nasi arab daging kambing golek tiada kemampuan. Nak masuk kedai lain kurang yakin kehalalan nya. Nak juga nasi lemak ayam. Walaupun ada nasi beriani ayam, nasi tomato ayam dan sebagainya. Dalam poket ada rm5.00 je. Hati nak juga nasi ayam rm5.00. Mana tak nya jauh kayuh basikal. Lapar punya pasal beli la nasi lauk sotong rm2.50. Kenyang. tapi hati terasa kekurangan. Esoknya makcik kedai bagi cebisan ayam dalam nasi lemak sotong tu. Sedap rasanya. Habis makan. Lusa nya nasi sotong jugak. Tapi nasi ayam makcik tu asyik duduk habis je. Dah usaha datang awal, kayuh laju macamana pun asyik tak dapat. Kecewa. Rupanya memang makcik tu tak nak jual kat kita. Siap cakap kat kedai lain kita tak ada kemampuan nak beli nasi ayam dia. Semua kedai tak nak jual kat kita. Kalau nak jual pun nasi lemak biasa je. Sebab dah selesa sedap makan nasi sotong kita pun dengan nasi sotong je.
Apakah itu kehidupan?
Kadangkala kita tiada mendapat apa yang kita inginkan. Selalunya. Andai kita mendapatnya. Alhamdulillah. Allah permudahkan urusan kita. Namun aku seringkali berkecil hati.
Wajarkah aku hanya Si Hmaba berdukacita pada Maha Pencipta? Keredhaan dan Kepasrahan itu sesuatu yang berbeza. Hanya hati yang redha mampu menahan segala ujian dengan hati terbuka. Namun aku masih belum mencapai tahap itu.
“...Wahai jiwa yang tenang kembalilah kamu kepada Tuhanmu dalam keadaan kamu redha dan diredhai. Masuklah dalam hamba-Ku dan masuklah ke dalam syurga-Ku....”
(Surah Al-Fajr, ayat 27-30)
Lirik lagu : Kurumi-Mr Adults by Mr Children
tell me,
What do you see looking at this city
How do I look to you now?
tell me,
When I start to hear the sarcasm in someone’s kindness
What am I to do?
Remembering only the good times
though it makes me feel like I’ve aged a sum
But you gotta be one of the gears
trying to get turning
You can have only as much despair as you have hope.
but still, my heart trembles at the thought of the future
‘what’s going to happen?’
I try to imagine.
tell me,
If time will eventually wash it all away
then life must be a simple affair.
tell me,
since then I haven’t cried once
but, neither have I had many good laughs
Somewhere I did up the buttons wrong,
by the time I notice, there’s one button leftover
and similarly one button hole, in need of a button
If you find meaning in finding someone then fine
you can have only as many partings
as you do encounters
still my heart trembles at the thought of hope.
everytime I encounter a crossroads
I’ll fret over which way to go but…
Eventhough I want more than I have now
I sing for an unchanging love
that’s what makes the gears turn
with the burden of more than I need,
making a dull grinding sound
you can have only as much despair as you do hope
and still my heart trembles
at the thought of the future
“what’s going to happen?”
let’s imagine
you can have only as many partings
as you do encounters
and still my heart trembles at the thought of hope
guess there’s no turning back,
so I’ll go on, to a road without you.
